May 2012
24 posts
blogsecret:
I am highly sensitive. Even the shallowest of things have an effect on me. I am always afraid of what other people think of me. I want everyone to like me. I want to befriend everyone. When someone hates me or ignores me it affects me a lot. I know I shouldn’t bother, but I make it such a big deal. I hate it. I don’t have inner peace.
…. Guilty );
blogsecret:
It seems to be that we can go days, weeks and months without seeing each other and we’ll be just fine. Because when we do see each other, everything seems to go back into place. It doesn’t matter how long it’s been or what we’ve done, we’ll always have feelings for each other. They’re never-ending.
blogsecret:
I think you deserve better, but I’m just going to be happy for you for now. You’ve got so much going on in your life, I don’t want to ruin your happy moment. I hope she doesn’t cheat on you. I hope she gains some self respect, for YOUR sake. I love you like a brother, you may as well be my brother. I don’t want to see you get hurt. She’s an attention seeker. Even when she gets...
Sometimes when you do nothing at all, things have a way of fixing themselves.
… I wish that could be true in this case ):
There’s SO much I would love to say here and to a certain person… But can’t. And I hate it. No matter what whether I tell them or not it’s going to seem weird to them. I’m just trying to clarify something, and if they can’t accept that, then they are truly immature to result to an odd conclusion as to why I would say it to them in the first place. I know...
blogsecret:
I’m afraid I might lose you.
blogsecret:
You only love me when you’re high.
blogsecret:
I really hate men that don’t keep their word
Why cant you understand that everything you NEED is right in front of you? Whether it may be in the exact way you want it, its there… Don’t take it for granted EVER. Then again… Who am i to say what you need or want and where its at? You never listen to me half or more than half the time anyway… At least i’m trying. ): but you will never understand anyway. Sometimes...
Call me cryptic.. But sometimes… I LOVE the darkest deepest shit that people or things have to offer. I may be a scaredy cat in general sometimes… but shit… when it comes down to it, I could be the creepiest, weirdest most cryptic person you ever met. And some of those who know me “BEST”… Don’t even know that aspect of me. If anything only ONE… <3...
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I don’t know… How to feel, or what to do. Point blank. I just really DONT KNOW… How to feel or what the fuck to do… It’s so hard..
FUCK. IT.
… That’s all I gotta say. ):<
Trust.
—Rant—If I’ve learned anything, its to be careful who you trust. Now , I may know that deep down, but on the outside…. I get along with anybody, or at least try to. I’m the type of girl to go out of her way for people and for those closest to me. Loyalty is HUGE in my eyes, we’d be in trouble without it. I’m thankful for all the friends I’ve made...
April 2012
6 posts
Random.
Don’t really know what to talk about but I felt like posting. My phone fucked up all day today JOY! -____________-; But whatever, ended up as a good night regardless. Just been hanging with good company. Figuring out plans for the weekend. I really hate how judgmental people can be… It can be down to your closest/best friends sometimes too. That’s the worst ): I know I...
Unknown.
What is it with you? I just never really know with you… This all sounds so weird but its nothing “like that”, I just don’t understand how things could get so awkward between two good friends out of nowhere. Did I do or say something wrong? I could be overthinking things yes, but I really don’t think I am… Not this time. It’s definitely different right...
Listen
Nothing Less.
Bright side of this past week: Got alot of wedding stuff done. Paid off the florist, Picked up my dress, Down payments on DJ and Photographer. Got the florist and my dress done while in SD for the week, got to see people again and go out for drinks and such with friends. Best friend from an hour north of SD came to stay the night finally! :D Overall a great week.
Down sides of the past week:...
Holy Shit.
That’s all I gotta say coming back here. Reading all the old posts… Fucking hilarious at this point. It’s insane how much things change! Either within a month or few or a year. Crazy!
January 2012
1 post
Crazy.
Can’t believe how much has changed! I laugh for the most part reading all of these old posts… LMAO. Made a new Tumblr, hit me up if you wanna know it to follow.
September 2010
1 post
It's simple.
I love you. I miss you. I HATE that you’re gone. My days are shitty. Maybe not always, but they are most of the time. I MUST hear from you soon or else I really WILL go insane.
October 20th… PLEASE come quickly! );
May 2010
2 posts
So… these past two days were pretty great. I had the feeling of not having to worry about anything or anyone here in SD. It was a mini escape. Not vacation at all, just visiting my sister. But it was worth it… REALLY worth it. Okay not ‘REALLY’ since we barely spent time together, but some parts made my trip very worth the wait<3
And yet… No longer than an hour...
I appreciate that they’re trying to lighten up the conversation, but after the main topic… I don’t think i can be okay for the rest of the night. This really sucks. It reminds me of why I have such a big conflict with myself and what I need to change and make better…
I know it wasn’t their intention to trigger these thoughts and feelings, but it just sucks. Just...
March 2010
1 post
I'm not gonna say...
That I miss you. Why? Because you’re a backstabbing BITCH. No wonder you said all the shit you did to me. You’re really something else. I liked you. You’re a cool girl, but shit I guess not anymore. You’re fucked up. Sorry if you’re jealous that I can be close friends with him when you can’t. You’re almost 21 bitch. Grow the fuck up and act your age. You...
January 2010
3 posts
14003.) I am fucking sick of putting in an effort...
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RP#7...
Haven’t posted anything up here in a while… A couple things just needed to be let out: First off, it bugs the fck out of me when people who marry into families swear like since they’re a part of the family, it means they have the authority to punish younger members of the family or try and take over. I’m sorry for those who are CLEARLY mistaken and think in that way; But...
December 2009
2 posts
Last minute..
Ughh! I was in limbo about tonight’s dance class. But then when I decided I really wanted to go, my friend bailed on me ): She had her reasons, I just hope she was sincere… Then again, I don’t get why she would lie about something like that. I hope things get better for her anyway. The advantage is I can get my math homework finished now before the test tomorrow. (:
Today was a...
November 2009
11 posts
Go away... Please?
Yesterday was a good day in general. I’m currently procrastinating on Math homework which I didn’t work on AT ALL this past week. FUCK. Oh well.. as long as I do at least half or a little more it’s all good…
I’m beginning to stress now. I loved this mini break, seeing family again and an old friend [before it got fucked up]. Now, just thinking of anything to do with...
Can I just say...?
Person number 1; You make it seem like I ruined our friendship. Sure, I have my own body, mind and choices, but shit… I almost feel it was a mistake to spend time with you. THANKS for avoiding me ALL FUCKING DAY TODAY. And the worst part is… you happen to be the one that helped me stop [temporarily] blogging negatively. But now… It’s all turned on you. You accuse me of...
After waiting for so long..
And this is what we ended up with..
I’m really disappointed in myself tonight. An old friend of mine and I , have been waiting to see each other again for quite a while. We’ve practically been counting the days and weeks till we saw each other again. But when we finally did… I feel like I screwed it up. It almost just sucked. I loved their company again and everything, and the...
Unnecessary pain?...
Like wtf? Not physical pains.. but emotionally.. mentally. Shit like that. I hate this. I shouldn’t even be feeling this way, but I do. I want it to stop, but I can’t stop caring. And it sucks. On top of that, I have weird dreams about the cause of it. It’s retarded. None of this makes sense but I felt like blogging… so yeah. I’m too lazy to write it out in a journal...
One Headlight..
I feel like I have so much to say. I’ve been wanting to blog so badly, but I just couldn’t seem to put my thoughts into words… It’s weird. On top of that, a good friend of mine pretty much talked me out of posting another venting blog. Which is a good thing, but it just made me feel like I didn’t need to blog about anything at the time -___-; Thanks I love you and...
RP# 6...
Some guys… are just plain DICKS.
nuff said.
I hate assholes.
Dear fucking douche...
I just wanted to say… Thanks. I’m so glad I met you at the party. You were the coolest person there. I’m so glad you got my number and asked me to hang out. And I just wanted to say thanks for ruining my life in one day. You don’t know how much I enjoy having rumors spread about me and getting to the same people who started shit with me 3 months ago. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH. I...
“I’m apparently doing wrong according to them… But it is they who...”
Pick me up?..
.. I think NOT.
So my bf’s sister’s 21st bday party was fun, but had some bad parts… and just the littlest of the bad parts made my night—or hers as a matter of fact—…SHIT. The party in general was fun, but on my end of it… Good parts; I met new people, they were pretty cool and easy to talk to [thank god people know how to SPEAK!], I became closer with...
12521.) You will forever have my heart, and She...
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