I’m beginning to think that maybe my weird sleep schedule is making me function weird. I always get at least 7 hours of sleep which is good for me, and other days I get about 9. Now, I think it might be somehow effecting my appetite and my moods…
No, I’m not on my period nor am I getting it [for another two weeks at least], but have become a bit more emotional and I seem to be depressed later at night. Not lonely, but I just tend to sometimes… Not to mention I get kinda bitchy for no apparent reason. It’s really weird. Today I felt like a pig, I felt like I was always hungry when I really wasnt. That happened to me friday too I believe… WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?!!! =/
There should be no reason for me to feel depressed or angry AT ALL at the end of my nights. I’ve been having some pretty good days lately… SO why the hell am I feeling this way? I don’t know if it’s possible for sleep to do this to a person, but if it is… Then someone PLEASE let me know! Ugh! I hate this. I hate feeling like I’m on my period moodwise when I’m not, or just feeling thsi way in general. I had a pretty great weekend too. asdfghjkl; I dont know what else to write about, only that I wanna figure out what the cause of this is…
A small part of me thinks maybe I’m just anxious to see someone and anxious for a certain big event to happen, but then at the same time, I dont know why that would effect me so much…
This is stupid. I just want it to go away. The upside about it is that I generally have become more open or just outgoing when it comes to meeting new people. If anything I WANT to meet more new people. I feel like I havent met enough.
I recently talked to someone about ”feeling empty” or like there’s more out there that I’m missing out on. And I loved that conversation because the person can totally relate to me right now. It’s like we feel kinda bored, but not exactly. More like we wanna meet new people and hang out with them instead of the friends we;ve had for a while. I guess to sum it up… We want change? And to see what’s out there? Yeah… That seems about right… Not that there’s anything wrong with my life or the people in it right now, but I just feel like I need something more… for now. idk. This all probably sounds stupid, but I really dont expect anyone to read this. But if anyone does.. Then definitely let me know.
I love how this post got off topic from the first, but I think right now I just really wanna ; #1 see a certain someone who I know no one will be able to guess, #2 talk to someone I dont really talk to. Sure the two things might sound contradicting toward each other, but whatever, it’s how I feel. I think what triggered the second the most was the fact that I found someone on Facebook whom I havent seen or talked to in 2 years, and the other thing was spending time talking to Alex’s sisters earlier while at his house. I missed our talks. asdfgyhjklo I just hope it gets better than that. I miss their company.
I guess I’ll stop for now before this post gets any more random. x____-;
