I hate it. I want it to stop. I shouldn’t have to try. They should. I’m absolutely sick of it. We’ve talked about this stupid situation countless times. And Just when I was convinced that it all got better again like it used to be a couple years back… It just continues to be the way it has been lately. And the only reason things got better recently within this past month or almost two was because of me. Tell me why that is? They supposedly care so much, but they have a funny way of showing it. Its on and off I swear. The next minute everything will be perfectly fine. It’ll be great. Then the next thing you know… It’s like they dont even care. WHAT THE FUCK. I feel like I’m trying too hard on something I shouldn’t be trying for at all. I don’t “give up”or “quit”on anything or anyONE. And especially not that person. When they think I did back then… I really DIDN’T. I simply just let them decide our fate. And how did it end up? With no communication [or less at least] for months. And now we’re talking like we used to again… all because of ME. I wish I didn’t care so much, I wish I could just stop trying knowing that they would carry things for once, and make it all better like it first was. But it’s like… What else should I do without it looking like I quit on them =/?