30
May
So… these past two days were pretty great. I had the feeling of not having to worry about anything or anyone here in SD. It was a mini escape. Not vacation at all, just visiting my sister. But it was worth it… REALLY worth it. Okay not ‘REALLY’ since we barely spent time together, but some parts made my trip very worth the wait<3
And yet… No longer than an hour after I get back to SD today, am I very irritated. It sucks. I was at my happiest… Well, near happiest coming back home, but then it all changed. I hate the way I’m always stuck in some situation I can’t seem to fix. It’s been this way for months now, and I just don’t know what to do about it anymore. It’s just kinda… there, and that’s not good, but it’s not good to solve things solely through impulsive thoughts or feelings either. Thennnnn what the fuck do I do? I mean like seriously.. it’s just a LITTLE irritating. I have a great need to vent, but I can’t vent to anyone, because the only person that knows all about this is not a phone call away. Which leaves me no one to talk to. And the fact that people are SO fucking judgmental these days rather than supportive no matter what, doesn’t help either. awsdfrghbjnkml,l whatever. I think I’m done for the night. Fuck it.
